Self abandon?

Nope! Says Unconditional Love.

Mary Beth, our worker bee, who tries to have everything under control. You have trampled through chaos, through suppression of feelings and opinions, and now we see your legs stretched out on your outdoor sofa, a pillow on your lap so you can write, your belly is full of BLT egg sandwich and your half-caf. The umbrella above protects you from that heat dome over you. Decisions for the day are made by yourself. No one decides what your day brings. You are reigning in your sanctuary, making sure all are cared for.

Little snapdragon, you listen for us. We wait for you to hear us. You act upon our words and signs. With vulnerability, you share what we say to you. We want you to continue in your profound daily search of your heart. You can’t get it right all the time, MB.

For today, soak in your flower garden of thyme, basil, and rosemary. The heat got your parsley. Your heirloom tomatoes are grown just to give away. You have made progress since long ago you dropped trying to please those you wanted to impress and thought you had to obey. You wanted to respond to other’s orders because then you aren’t to blame, but actually, all you did was obey.

Lazy one.

Now look who’s in charge. Look who has made footsteps to put an end to generational trauma in your family. You see strong women in your family now, who are physically, emotionally, and spiritually running their own show.

Today is a good day. Keep trying to find your true north in this single day. Make your sanctuary comfortable, and soak up your garden, little fuchsia bud. Keep listening to us. Keep learning about Mary Beth in the world today.

This is it, my precious.

Breathe.