Your anger is welcome. No more "clearinghouse" needed. It takes a bit of convincing to these parts of us that went into overdrive trying to protect us in the only way they knew how. Now, you have tools, your voice, and it is taking time. Yet each moment is worthwhile as you speak your truth clearly, with no filter needed, as there is no punitive entity standing nearby keeping score. YOU are your own goal keeper! A beautiful letter from Love dear MB. 💜💫❤️🔥
What I mean by punitive entity is there is no one or nothing who might be judging or making you feel ‘wrong’ or ‘unsafe’ to speak how you feel. You understand now that if there is judgment that is on them, and has nothing to do with you. The throat clearing could be looked upon as a ‘filter’ a behavior that you implemented for many reasons. Understanding the root, the why, what was/is the throat clearing trying to protect and keep you safe from? This is what you have been sifting and sorting.
Yes, wise Joanie, I welcome my anger. And yes to this, “It takes a bit of convincing to these parts of us that went into overdrive trying to protect us in the only way they knew how.” That’s exactly what I’ve done, with throat clearing, tears, exploding, pleasing others, etc. And yes, I am using my voice right here on Substack! I’m so excited about it. I am doing my best to speak my truth. But it’s not quite there at times. Not sure what you mean by the filter and punitive entity. thank you Joanie for your thoughtful words. Mwah! xxoo Much love to you.
This is where my throat is this morning...closing, while my heart is shouting FIRE!. Yes, I am angry. Of course, I am. My chest is heavy as I try to stand for myself and my once strong partner as well.
Your anger is welcome. No more "clearinghouse" needed. It takes a bit of convincing to these parts of us that went into overdrive trying to protect us in the only way they knew how. Now, you have tools, your voice, and it is taking time. Yet each moment is worthwhile as you speak your truth clearly, with no filter needed, as there is no punitive entity standing nearby keeping score. YOU are your own goal keeper! A beautiful letter from Love dear MB. 💜💫❤️🔥
What I mean by punitive entity is there is no one or nothing who might be judging or making you feel ‘wrong’ or ‘unsafe’ to speak how you feel. You understand now that if there is judgment that is on them, and has nothing to do with you. The throat clearing could be looked upon as a ‘filter’ a behavior that you implemented for many reasons. Understanding the root, the why, what was/is the throat clearing trying to protect and keep you safe from? This is what you have been sifting and sorting.
I have been my own punitive entity, when I say I am bad. :(
Understanding why I have been implementing the filter is key and I believe I am still working on this.
Thank you Joanie for your time, thoughts and responses. <3
Yes, wise Joanie, I welcome my anger. And yes to this, “It takes a bit of convincing to these parts of us that went into overdrive trying to protect us in the only way they knew how.” That’s exactly what I’ve done, with throat clearing, tears, exploding, pleasing others, etc. And yes, I am using my voice right here on Substack! I’m so excited about it. I am doing my best to speak my truth. But it’s not quite there at times. Not sure what you mean by the filter and punitive entity. thank you Joanie for your thoughtful words. Mwah! xxoo Much love to you.
This is where my throat is this morning...closing, while my heart is shouting FIRE!. Yes, I am angry. Of course, I am. My chest is heavy as I try to stand for myself and my once strong partner as well.
Yes, sweet Naomi, I stand with you and yell FIRE!
Just posted my special Valentine’s Day message on my profile. What do you think? I plan deeper dive into this on my Wordpress blog.